Crumpy, part 2

  So I read my horoscope this morning. But first,  Happy Birthday  to my mommers who is 69 today and  who has survived breast cancer.  ( Big party next year everyone, save the date.  Mom's wishes. otherwise I would have thrown one this year, why wait?)   And here I am whining about being crumpy b/c um uh (what was my beef again? I'm sure it was something like my life isn't what I thought it would be, and one of my dogs peed on the other dog. And probably something like the little dog eats the big dogs food and the cat eats the little dogs food ,  and I hate being on call, I suck at relationships, I 'm tired of renting, and I have this incredible urge to drink beer and eat chips, which in turn is causing a thing around my waist I would call love handles. (someone grab onto those would ya?), the weather stinks, I pay too much in taxes ( considering, really, honestly?), and ...well ..That's all for now.) I actually have my health.  And everything I really need.  (minus the music and noise coming from downstairs that does not belong to me).   Except I could use  a little more perspective.  I  was thinking about this though, good and hard, ....can you have perspective without experience?   I want to appreciate my family more, but I don't seem to,  I know they are an hour away.
  So today....I read my horoscope.  and this is what it said...June 07, 2011


Pisces (2/19-3/20)



Sometimes when you're granted a wish you don't always realize it; something you've been waiting for is coming your way now, so you'd better open your eyes to see it. Dressed up in camouflage, it probably won't fit your physical ideal -- but it is perfect for you. Any adjustments you need to make to accept it are necessary. Choices you made in a work or school environment are paying off, and you will be given a chance soon to enjoy an extended stay in luxurious surroundings.






How this applies to me , you may wonder?  I have really been wanting more out of my life, just more, less grind, more fun...I'm a dreamer.  But not an entrepreneur.  I think I miss out on a lot of opportunities b/c I can be a little too laid back, I don't like to force things.  I like them to just happen by chance, by being in the right place at the right time.  I wouldn't call myself a go getter.  I go to work day in and day out just like millions out there.  I do my best, but in my profession there really isn't any such thing as climbing a corporate ladder, or having much control over your income.  Either people like you or they don't.  And that is how I make money.  People have to like the work I do and they have to like me as a person. 
  Today , I chose to go to work on  very short notice, and I'm really glad I did.  Now I have a new potential client.  Someone that liked my work regardless of how I "showed up to work".  In my profession you need to be very clean and look very clean, well when someone wants something fast  I guess they don't notice how you look.  I totally broke policy.  Flip flops, no black pants, some pants....just not black, and my hair, it looked like I had just crawled out of a tent.
  Today I would like to think that my client is dressed up in camouflage.  There may be more to this story, or not.  I can't say right now.  I don't know.  All I know is that today was different.  Something I've been waiting for perhaps?

Crumpy

  Is that a word even?  I'm not sure but I'm making it one that describes me lately.  Crumpy:  Cranky and grumpy at the same time.
I like this definition of cranky from the  wiktionary.  Not in perfect mental working order; eccentric, peculiar.   but I think this  may describe me more at the moment:    Grouchy, irritable; easily upset.   Here's the definition of grumpy.  Unhappy and/or irritable, a word which is particularly applied to babies and children or adults who are acting childishly.   "Adults who are acting childishly".  I guess that would be me.
 
Do you ever feel that life just gets old?  You're  tired of it and the grind, maybe the grind is not even a hard grind , but it's a grind.  There may be nothing to look forward to.  Nothing goes right.  You don't feel loved or appreciated.  You give, but feel like you never get.  Your big dog pees all over the little dog.

little dog after a bath

And your battery dies on your lap top and your forgot the cord .... to be continued.......................................................